.Monday, May 18, 2009 ' 4:29 AM Y
原本今天还挺是个快乐的一天, 但不知为何我会因些芝麻绿豆的小事, 而影响了我今天的情绪? 也许是因为我天真的把每件事都想得太完美, 而不曾去想过事情不妙的纯在吧. 我总以为只要你真心对些人, 他们就一定不会将你抛到远边, 而也会一你为中心. 可我错了, 因为在这个现时社会中, 无人会为了你而活着的. 除此之外, 人人也都不会为你而放弃某些东西. 难到就代表着我门就不该为了任何人而傻傻地牺牲吗? 有时我正在想我究竟是否跟对了某些人...
总而言之, 我决定了只要有人真心与我为友, 我就为了他或她而付出真心. 因为我不想在被残酷的现时而难过...
.Thursday, February 19, 2009 ' 1:16 AM Y
Lol...juz realised tt I've abandoned my blog 4 mths? Anyway I'm bac 2 blogging abt my tots on these few days.Appareantly it's sth bad tt had happened 2 me...haii. I've tried vry hard 2 remain cheerful in front of my frens, though I had failed many of my subjects n dun u noe tt it's vry hard 2 always remain cheerful even when sth unpleasant had happened 2 u? N can u all pls c ppl mood b4 wanting 2 joke or nt...n I would like 2 make it clear tt I dun like tt guy in our sch lor. Cos he's nt my cup of tea...so can u all pls dun be soo childish 2 always say tt or nt. Maybe by saying it once or twice...I may entertain u all...bt keeping on repeating the same ting really sounds annoying. N I'm really sry 4 nt having the mood 2 joke wif u all. Haii.Haii...besides tt I oso felt rather sad abt the results tt I've gotten. Though I knew tt I had nt put in much effort in my CA, bt I did nt expect 2 fail 4 subjects at 1 go. It's like so embarrassing 2 fail soo many subjects while others pass wif flying colors. Besides tt...one guy asked me a qn which make me ponder 4 days...tt is "dun u noe tt getting an A is actually nt difficult at all?" N yea...when i was in sec 1 or 2...getting 70 marks 4 me is indeed nt difficult at all...bt nw I tot tt it was rather hard n it's no longer easy anymore 4 me as I had been slacking soo long. I could nt blame any1 for making me get poor results...bt actually myself 2 be blamed as I had nt cared or studied hard 4 my tests.Besides tt...my family members had pinned alot if hope on me n getting gd results. Bt I've failed 2 achieve wat they wanted. My mummy told me tt I'm like a type of useless ppl n I had no future. She tot tt i would be selling all those dim sum or watever food in a restaurant as a waitress wif low pay...n I would be some1 of rather low class 2 be seving my younger cousins when they grew up. It seems like they r the superior ones n I'm the inferior type. N yea...my grandfather on the other hand said tt it would be a shame if u as the eldest among the cousins could nt set a gd eg 4 yr them by getting gd results n when they grew up...they r much cleverer than u n they might even look down on u. Upon hearing...it really make my heart cries...bt I had 2 ctrl my own emotions n acted as if I dun care at all. It was really sth tt hurts my heart when I heard tt...n yea I still had 2 keep it in my heart n nt let them noe how sad I was 2 hear such comments. N I've found out tt 2 them I was a complete failure...n I'm some1 they would nt pin hopes on anymore. I'm actually = failure + useless. Tt's wat i could say abt myself n I'm juz w8 4 days 2 pass quickly n tt all unhappy tings n critism by classmate could vanish faster. All I could do was 2 try nt 2 care abt wat they say n sometimes I really felt numb abt my resullts n the way ppl look down on me upon my results...haii.
.Sunday, December 28, 2008 ' 3:15 PM Y
Went shopping wif joey, fz n pg on fri at AMK hub...haha. I went there 2 shop 4 shorts, while fz was there 4 clothes. Bt in fact none of us had seen any ting tt suits us...so we juz went 2 arcade 2 play basketball. Lol, i had a mit up wif someone bt didn't even realise tt the person is actually juz standing behind looking at us play. Haii...it's like damm ps de lor+the way i throw the basketball is in the wrong manner and my score was so damm lousy. Haha...anyway juz 4get abt the ps part bah n gt the present frm him. N then went bac home wif my frens, leaving him 2 take taxi bac home. Lol. Btw, I would oso like 2 tkx Joey n Pg 4 their present too n they all 4 acc me 2 go Amk hub. Haha.
.Tuesday, November 4, 2008 ' 12:34 AM Y
2moro is my big day le loh...haha. Tt is...my O lvl chinese. Lol, really wish tt I can score wif flying colours. Haha. Anyway gt 2 chiong studying chinese, or else I tink my A grade confirm will fly away de lor. So yea, gonna buck up and go get an A back, or else I would be kicked back 2 xpress chinese agn. Erm, tt may seems a bit paiseh. Haha. Bt yea, no offence 2 ppl studying xpress chinese. Lol, juz come bac home then on9. Erm...then somehow crap wif joey n fz. Haha...suddenly felt tt they 2 became lamers. Lol, no offence arh. Bt anyway nxt time dun crap too much when u invite a third party 2 our conver, cos it really makes me damm ps. Anyway, I really have no feelings 4 tt guy, so dun tink too ,much. All I have been tinking now is my tests n the loads of science prac 4 me 2 complete it. The chem prac was utterly boring n I hate it. Juz do some pouring of acids n alkalis here n there n I was like confused due 2 these 2 chemicals. Btw, tt bottle of sulphuric acid really itch my hand, so I tink i muz be careful of acid so as nt 2 make my hands itchy. Haha. Juz hope tt dis chem prac would nt be a failure agn.
.Friday, October 31, 2008 ' 4:41 PM Y
2 dae as ususal, I've 4gotten 2 do my hw agn. Lol, maybe it's my memory deteriorating. Anyway, it was lucky tt my bio teacher did nt care if I'm doing my other sch wk n copying down his notes at the same time. Besides tt, I did nt complete my chinese n tt rather strict teacher did nt check our wk. Or else ppl would be seeing someone standing outside the classrm. Haha.
Anyway, I've found tt persuading someone 2 let me do sth I want is nt rather easy, haha. So, I really wish tt I would be able 2 go n watch movie wif my friends -- The coffin. Haha, it's my 1st time watching horror movie in a cinema. Really wonder how it would be like, lol. Afterall, I tink it would be gd cos I have 2 of my gd friends going tgt wif me. They r pg n joey, lol. Erm...sori if I've 4gotten yr name, cos I'm nt sure who's goin n it's nt me who asked them out...haha. So my job is rather easy, tt is juz go n watch wif all these wonderful ppl. Lol, so gd of me har 2 praise u all wonderful. Lol.
.Thursday, October 30, 2008 ' 12:09 AM Y
Ystd physics practical was a total failure...haiii. I was practically making all sorts of mistake, though I had done the prac b4 successfully. I really wonder y I've made so much mistakes ystd. I apparently copied answers frm my friend n tt shuld nt be sth I ought 2 do 4 my prac. I was like gonna have my prac exam soon, n yet I did nt even do it properly. Pretty upset abt the failure in completing my phy prac.Anyway, 2dae was nt goin 2 be a sclacking day aft I reached home. Cos I nid 2 learn my amath well n do the amath hw. Haha, juz in case teacher call me 2 answer it agn. Really wish tt someone could me there 2 accompany me n teach me how 2 slove all those qns. Lol, I noe tt's very dependent of me 2 rely on others. Btw...I'm really on the mood 2 go on holiday soon. Haha. If I'm nt wrong I tink I would be away from 15nov to 18nov, which is like 4 days. Wow, finally can go somewhere 2 relax myself n play all I want. Lol, ppl dun miss ben xiao jie hor. Haha, jkjk. Anyway really hope 2 be able 2 go shopping wif my friends b4 I go on holi...juz hope tt it will come true. Lol.
.Saturday, October 4, 2008 ' 10:50 AM Y
Wow, I've finally find some time 2 update my bloggy!!! Haha, actually nt really bcoz i'm really very busy, bt rather stuck at home playing com n chatting thru msn. All I can say is tt I've been slacking throughout dis sec 3. I have nt been really studying 4 almost dis whole yr. No matter how my friends push me or taunt me 2 study, it juz dun wk. I really feel very sorry 4 them, cos I knew tt i've failed their expectation 4 me. I'm really sori. Bt i dun noe y, I juz couldn't get myself 2 study n juz tot tt I would like 2 pass my exams n tt's ok already. Tt was nt wat I shuld hav tot in a few yrs back. I would have been rushing n wking hard 4 my exams, so as always 2 be the 1st or top 3 in class. However, my motivation 2 study seemed 2 have been lost since I was sec3.
Haiii...really felt sori 4 ppl who had high expectations of me getting high marks. Bt I promise u all I will do my very best 4 my nxt yr exams. I really promise all of u tt. No more playing of com almost every minute. I will buck up n classmates, I gonna trash u all down. Pls be careful!!! Lol, jk only. Bt really, I will try my very best 2 trash all of u n get back my high scores. Though it would be rather difficult, bt I will try my very best n do all sorts of revision 2 get back my results. I will never ever slack nxt yr, cos it's 'O' level. Tt is a yr which mark my success 2 everything n I dun wan 2 displease my fellow friends n parents anymore. Cos they r the most impt. ppl in my life, so I will nt wan 2 dissapoint them anymore...haha. Though I'm funny n joke almost every time, bt I really made the promise tt I will study hard 4 nxt yr n get gd results. It's a promise tt I would surely fullfill it by myself. Anyway, friends who wan 2 help me out 4 studying, yea n pls...haha. Bt if u ask me 2 go 4 shopping too much, I will smack yr face. Lol, juz kidding only. I like goin out wif u guys, cos u all really make me felt happy n relax. They r of cos ppl frm acad, a bunch of jokers. Haha.
Anyway, really gd 2 have such friends...hehe. N yea, ppl frm imvu. Some of them r oso my gd friends n we practically chat wif each other almost everyday. Hope tt our friendship will nvr end n hope tt my friends, pls bring up yr courage 2 pursue the gals u like...haha. All the best 2 all of u in yr luv relationship. Lol.
