.Friday, September 5, 2008 ' 12:20 PM Y
Status?
Does status really meant a lot 2 u? I sometimes really qn myself regarding dis qn. I really dunno why ppl wan 2 fight over status n cause unhappiness among one another. Is tt all u wan 2 see? I really hope tt all of us can return 2 the times when we r in sec 2s when we play n joke with one another. The times when we make a fool out of ourselves. I really enjoy those days when we had no conflicts n hatred with one another. The time when all of us seem 2 be innocent ppl, always there 2 help one another
But all gd tings will come 2 an end. Everything changes… All of us cnt play n tok 2 each other in a nicer way n I dunno if I shuld trust u anymore. It seems as though I nid 2 tink twice b4 wanting 2 tel u my secrets. I believe in u bt y did u wan 2 say out my secret 2 other ppl? It really aches my heart when I realized I had believed in someone whom I shuld nt trust at all. I’m one who wanted ppl 2 trust me n 2 help me keep my secrets. I began 2 feel tt the dist. 4 our friendship becomes farther n farther, till I cnt reach u anymore. Sometimes I really tot tt we r strangers n I dunno who u r. I began 2 feel tt u did nt really treat me as yr friend b4. As a friend, u shuld always treat me in a better way n nt juz come 2 me when u hav no friend 2 accompany u. It’s like when u had found yr friends, u would shoo me away. Dis really upset me. In rc, u would always act as though u own the whole world. I can admit tt my footdrills is really very lousy, bt do u nid 2 say til I’m like so useless? Do u ever stand in other ppl’s shoe, tinking of whether u would hurt their heart? I guessed u didn’t or maybe nvr.
I really dunno how 2 tok 2 u now. When u had prob wif yr math, I would nt laugh at u bt rather help u. Bt when I had prob wif my math, u juz laugh at me n dun wan 2 help me. Is dis how u shuld treat a friend? I really hate u at times or maybe begin 2 hate u more n more each time. I really dunno how 2 treat u? I really feel like asking u 2 shoo away n get out of my sight. Bt I dun wan dis 2 happen at all. I’m really controlling myself nt 2 say out all the unhappiness I had in u.
At times I really qn myself, is it bcoz I’m too sensitive or emotional abt the change in u towards me. I’m one who really treasure friendship n esp. when I had already regard u as my true friend. All I can say is tt I dunno status can win friendship. Now u r the vice chairman while I’m of the lowest rank. N due 2 tt, u began 2 look down on me n sometimes tot tt I’m one whom u dun even wan 2 notice. I really dunno if tt’s wat u meant by friendship? I’m getting tired of wanting 2 maintain a gd friendship wif u, since u dun even treasure it. I really dunno how 2 express my feeling 2wards u. All I can say abt u is tt u really change alot into someone I dunno n tt I hated u!!
